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Friday, March 5, 2010

Calm...Determination...and Friday Follow!


The last few weeks have been a whirlwind of study, work, kids and active procrastination. I sat my exam this morning, and I know for a fact that my anticipated failure is no longer just a possibility, but a certainty. 

This my first failed exam. School has always been my thing. I could always put forth a minimum of effort and still maintain fairly good grades. Well, my complacency has caught up with me, and I have met my match in Financial Accounting 2. Discrete Mathematics? Quantitative Modelling? Computer Programming? I scoff in the face of these challenges--peh! Put a couple of deferred liabilities and some Present Value calculations in my path and I crumble. 

I have thought about how I would feel today, knowing in my heart that I have failed. I thought there would be a few tears of frustration, feelings of 'woe is me'--a pity party for sure. Strangely, I feel none of that. I feel calm. I feel determined--determined to do better next time.

I have come up with a few positives to this downturn of events:
  • I will know what to expect the next time I have to take this exam. 
  • 3/4 of the course material is already in my brain--ok, maybe 1/4 or I would have passed right?
  • I have between now and December to review what I did wrong.
  • I am starting Italian this week, and that will be heaps more fun!
  • I can catch up on all the stuff that has been piling up around me whilst I have been cramming. Cockroaches be gone!
  • I don't have to think about Accounting again today, and I think I might have a glass of wine. 
I credit my positive outlook to the fact that I blogged about this earlier in the week. I think that by writing about it, I prepared myself mentally for this eventuality. I have come to realise that it is no one's fault but my own and that I can either a) spend this weekend feeling sorry for myself or b) I can enjoy the weekend with my family and start to take some positive steps on Monday to do better next time. 

I choose b) and fully intend to get a High Distinction in Financial Accounting the next time around, and while I'm making big goals I'll add a High Distinction to my Italian subject as well!

Hope you all have a fab weekend! I had so much fun the last time around that I am joining the Friday Follow again this week. 


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